I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I`m not sure if I should say this, fuck, I`ll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I`m going through a phase
I don`t know if it`s a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I`m going through a phase
Yeah, it`s not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it`s probably `cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
`Cause I`m about to break down, I`m searching for a way out
I`m a liar, I`m a cheater, I`m a non-believer
I`m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I`m a popular, popular monster
I think I`m going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I`m in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won`t take
But my therapist will tell me that I`m going through a stage
Yeah, it`s not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things `cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
`Cause I`m about to break down, I`m searching for a way out
I`m a liar, I`m a cheater, I`m a non-believer
I`m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I`m a popular, popular fucking monster
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We`re sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don`t believe
We`re searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Oh, where the fuck is your god now?
`Cause I`m about to break down, I`m searching for a way out
I`m a liar, I`m a cheater, I`m a non-believer
I`m a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I`m not a popular, popular monster
I`m a liar, I`m a cheater, I`m a non-believer
I`m a popular, popular monster